Amanda Kloots has shown an immense amount of strength. Through husband Nick Cordero’s battle against COVID-19 and his death earlier this month, Amanda has put on a brave face. As she moves through the grieving process, she opened up about her fear of what happens next.
On Saturday, Nick’s loved ones gathered for an intimate memorial. Amanda opened up about the event in another update to fans on Instagram.
“We had a small memorial yesterday with close family and friends. I said, ‘Nick would have wanted this to be a celebration. Let’s try to laugh, share great stories, and sing for him and to his memory,’” she shared.
“He would have loved it. It was beautiful and perfect. His spirit was definitely there. We listened to the song, I’m Here, from The Color Purple. Nick and I saw this show on Broadway years ago and we left the theater in tears, speechless. As it was being played last night the lyrics in the second half of the song hit me hard.”
“Truly, I am scared. Scared of my new normal, of the pain, the loss, and being strong enough to get through it. But, I know Nick is up above routing for me, believing in me and hoping for me. He wants me to LIVE this new life and he wants me to be the best version of myself for our son. I promised him in the hospital that I would try to do that.”
“So, when I heard these lyrics yesterday I thought, ‘Ok. When I’m doubting if I can get through this, I’m playing this song. It will be my motto.’ This is a long journey ahead and a down road I never thought I’d be on. No one can tell me how to do it, I have to do it. I may do things right, I may do them wrong. There isn’t a perfect way. One day, one step at a time. I have faith that God is leading the way and that Nick is our angel.”
Nick was in the ICU for 95 days before his death on July 5. Amanda was courageous and raw in her ability to keep fans updated on his conditions. Though the road ahead is difficult, Amanda is motivated to keep Nick’s memory alive. The outpouring of love and support she and 1-year-old son Elvis have received from around the world will hopefully be a comfort as she navigates these difficult next steps.
Source : https://www.littlethings.com/amanda-kloots-memorial/