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“I do know my father’s (possibly) last words. I wasn’t there, but he called me and left me a long voicemail. It was the middle of the night, so I was passed out. It all boiled down to him apologizing for a fight we had months before, after which we didn’t talk for a while. The final words I have recorded before he hung up were, and I quote, ‘I hope you don’t blame yourself for what is going to happen, but I think this is the end for me. I’m sorry I couldn’t talk to you one last time.’ He committed suicide within an hour of that voicemail, according to the coroner’s report.”
“I was only 17 at the time. When I woke up the next morning, it was too late to call him back. It may not be haunting to most, but it does haunt me to this day, and I still blame myself because I could tell from his voice that that fight was still weighing on him.” —u/unusedwings
Source: https://www.buzzfeed.com/victoriavouloumanos/last-words-deathbed
